Summertime Blues

 

    The preheating has begun in the southern states and the familiar and unwelcome feeling of being unable to drag my body out of bed has come with it. I am not a fan of the summer time, it has it upsides yes like being able to swim, picking different fruits and vegetables, picnics and different outings not available during the cold months and of course the beach. For me summer offers seasonal depression as well and it has been that way as long as I can remember. I hate the heat because of the humidity that follows and I hate sweating as soon as I take one step outside the door. I hate the bugs that come back out, they’re noisy and most of them bite. They carry unwanted diseases and all I’m trying to do is make it to my car without dying. Once I am in the car my steering wheel then tries to give my hands third degree burns while I blast the A/C and try to air out the hot air. It also brings back unwanted memories and things I don’t remember as well. Many people get depression during fall and winter but for me it is always during the summer. I find ways to keep myself busy and brain entertained so I don’t have time to think about anything otherwise it feels like the hot months drag on and on. 

     As we come into this summer the season depression is creeping up on me but thankfully I have things going on that will keep me occupied. For one my kids, they are all getting older and doing more activities so it is easier to find things to do. Albeit I don’t want to join them outside I do try to take them on outings in the morning, the only time the heat won’t take us out. Once July and August hit though I probably won’t be outside much and I probably will try to keep them from going out during the hotter part of the days. I also just turned in my query to a publisher who had an open submission program recently and I am waiting to hear back from them. I don’t know if I will get an offer but if I do this will keep me busy and help me toward my dream of being an author. Once June 3 comes around my business will be keeping me busy. I am opening a small business that day and hopefully it does well, it will be my first time trying to be a business owner so I’m sure Ill learn a lot and have many things to figure out along the way. 

   Being back in Florida also provides things like being closer tot he beach and having more access to lake activities and camping than where we used to live. There are so many things to keep me busy with that I am hoping the seasonal depression doesn’t hit too hard this year but it’s hard to tell what will happen. Sometimes it’s okay and manageable and sometimes it’s harder than I want it to be. Through most of the year I only deal with my anxiety, the depression doesn’t sink in too much but during the summer it strikes hard. If you struggle with anxiety and depression, you’re not alone and it is okay to talk to someone about it. If you need medication to get through it that is valid and important and okay as well, that’s why we have doctors. I hope you’re around supportive and loving people who will help you through life even when it’s hard. I hope your summer is full of joy and peace!

   The website will be fully updated not too long from now so I hope you’ll all be looking for that update and even if you don’t purchase anything, sharing the link and the information or reposting things is such a help in itself. 

Much love,

M